The Return of Myron!

I was getting ready for work this morning and when looked into the mirror and thought something was wrong.  It was, the chin that I had lost seemed to be attempting to show up again!  My stomach roiled  and I saw tears gathering in my eyes.  And from a dark corner of my brain, I heard Myron's maniacal laughter, and it was growing louder and louder by the moment!


Things just went down hill from there:

• Ran out of the house without breakfast (boo boo number 1).
• Felt weird and weak and tired - checked blood sugar = 59! (Lowest it has ever been)
• Called hubby, that wonderful man brought me food! (blood sugar went back up)
• 2 hours later, blood sugar was 73 - NOT GOOD!
• Had a small snack - 10 minutes later - sugar was 142 - TOO HIGH!

It slowly dawned on me during throughout the day, that I had not been feeling well a lot lately.  My headaches are coming back with a vengeance!
 
For weeks now, I have heard a ringing in my ears.  Today I realized it wasn't ringing; it was that damn Myron laughing at me!


My wonderful, amazing hubby spent part of his day at home clearing the 'contraband' from the house.  I am a weak willed individual.  I have figured out that I can not have the stuff in the house.  If it is here, I will find it.


My best indicator that I was in trouble actually occurred the other day.  I had asked the boys bring me chocolate.  Which they did, and I waited until they were upstairs, or in the shower before I would eat it.  then, I made sure that all candy wrappers were disposed of and out of sight before my mom came over and saw it.


I am really beginning to worry about this food addiction thing!  It goes out of the house and I go back on a strict regime.


I feel humiliated by all of this.  This is not the way things are supposed to work.  I am not supposed to fall this far off the wagon.  Okay, I didn't just fall off the wagon, I jumped and then laid in the road and allowed the wagon to run me over a few times before I thought to get up out of the dirt and brush myself off.


The dirt is coming off and I am plotting Myron's next downfall!