Okay, I'll be honest. I was sulking. I'm not proud of it, but that was what I was doing. Sorry about that.
When this all started, I wanted to do it alone. well okay, not alone, but without a solid program or meetings or things of that nature.
My trip to the Nutritionist made me rethink my whole position. You know what? I can't do it alone, sometimes in life, you have to admit that you need help.
This has been very difficult for me to admit to myself. I hate it when I let myself down, which is what I had thought that i did. I considered myself a failure.
I really need to stop that!
Hubby and I went out tonight for a very rare night out. We had a conversation about what I was thinking and feeling and where we had thought things have gone off the rails.
I figured it out, and in the interest of full disclosure (that was the deal at the beginning of this journey), here is what I (we) figured out:
- Getting tired makes you lazy and makes fast food much more attractive at the end of the day.
- Going to the store at the end of a long day and grabbing the first thing you see (even if it's a good for you thing, is a bad plan).
- Not exercising (even when you hate it) is just plain stupid!
- I have realized that I am, in fact, an addict. I do believe that I am addicted to food. Especially food that is bad for me!
- I need to swallow my pride, stop sulking, and take the help that I need to get where I need to go.
We are going back to weekly menu planning and I will be avoiding the grocery store for the foreseeable future.
New plan, check
New Attitude, check
New determination, check
The only thing I need now, is a new philosophy:
When you pursue your dreams with focus, self-doubt can't catch you!