Scared . . . . .

This weekend my mother had a scary episode that took us to the hospital.  It turned out what I thought was a stroke, was a Transient ischemic attack (TIA).  These are also known as baby strokes.  No permanent damage.  That was the first scary thing that happened.

The second scary thing was something that the doctors said.  Something EVERY doctor said.

As medical staff was coming in and out talking to us, every single one asked the same few questions:

• Do you have Diabetes?
• Do you have high blood pressure?
• Do you have high cholesterol?

A couple of the doctors actually glanced at me as they were asking my mother these questions.  Every time they were asked, the hair on the back of my neck stood up.

Apparently I am in a VERY high risk group!  What wonderful news!!

As if I wasn't scared enough with what was going on with Mom, now let's continually remind me of that nasty piece of my reality.

Guess I've just been delivered a good swift kick!

My mom is going to be okay.  I just have to make sure that I am too!

Paleo Diet, here we come!

• When you are a kid, you get to goof off, play with your friends and explore the world, that's what kids do.

• When you are a teenager, you get to discover the opposite sex, make stupid mistakes, and drive a car.  That's what teens do.
• When you are in your twenties, you figure out how to live on your own, discover the differences in people and reach the drinking age, that is what your twenties are for.
• When you are in your thirties, you settle down, establish your career and gather your family, the one that you are given, and the one that you make.  That is what your thirties are for.
• When you are in your forties, you come to terms with yourself, really learn who you are and learn to like yourself, that's what your forties are for.

I'll admit, I'm a slow learner.  I am only now realizing that I am fine the way I am.  I am actually beginning to like me.  I am not seeking approval from others, but looking inside for the approval that I need.

I may like my forties after all!